It's my blog

I am supposed to be sleeping and with a 3 month old I'm not sure why blogging right now seems more important than sleep. I guess it's the need to write things down and have them for future reference. In the past I have found myself wanting to blog about something but haven't because I worry about what the people reading it might think. I've decided it's my blog and I will write what I want. My mom has been taking A creative writing class and she has been talking about all the great things they get to write about. It made me think about one of my greatest desires which is to be able to create something beautiful from paper and a pen. I'm not much of a drawer so thats out and I have an issue with getting the things I am thinking to translate well onto paper. I am just hoping that by blogging more, I might be able to better express my thoughts on paper. So, lately I have been thinking about Jeffs brain thing and this second time around is alot like bungee jumping. For those of you who have ever been bungee jumping twice, I think you would agree that the second jump is always harder. The first time, your heart is beating in anticipation, you don't look down because you would rather not see how far it really is, and when your toes come to the edge you know it will be scary but you just can't know exactly what it's really like. That's why you jump. How bad could it really be? Well the second time you stand up there with your toes over the edge, you know! It takes twice as long to get the courage up to make the plunge because the knowledge of what's to come is already in you. That's what it has been like this second time around with brain surgery. I think about what Jeff had to go through after his surgery and I am terrified of having to do that again. Prayer has helped for sure and when I don't think about what might happen it's better. I really do just need to take it one day at a time and have faith that Heavenly Father won't give me a trial I can't handle.

Brain Surgery Take 2

As much as I would love to blog about my little man and how cute he is, I have been given something else to blog about. It has been just about a year since Jeffs first brain surgery and until a week ago we thought we were in the clear. Jeff’s eyes have been progressively getting worse since the surgery and we have been going to different eye doctors to see what the problem was. It wasn’t until last Wednesday when we went to see a neuro-ophthalmologist that we found out a new lesion is pushing on the optic nerve in his brain. The neurosurgeon decided it was in Jeff’s best interest to go back in and get a piece of these new lesions that are growing to try and decipher what exactly is growing in there. This time the surgery will only be the start of our journey. Once they figure out what exactly is growing, they will make a game plan from there. So it looks like we have another year of hospitals and doctors and waiting for answers. For everyone who is reading this, Jeff could use a lot of prayers.

On a lighter note, check out our little cutie!

Has it been that long?

I just realized its been a few MONTHS since my last post! I cant believe its been that long. I guess I can blame it on the baby. He is growing so fast and I dont want to spend a minute without him. The last few months have been great. Christmas day was spent on the ski hill with Jeff and I switching off watching Archer in the lodge. It was wonderful, since it was christmas day there was no one on the slopes to get in my way. Since then I have joined a baby massage class that I love and also joined a gym in hopes that it will help me on my goal to run a half marathon. I know its a huge goal and I'm not really sure I knew what I was getting myself into when I decided on it but Jeff said he would be right there beside me doing it too! Archer is already 2 1/2 months old and growing like a weed. They dont stay little for long.
Jeff went to the neurologist a few days ago and he got cleared to drive again so he is walking on air right now! He is loving having that independance back.
This post is a short one but I will be back soon. Hopfully I dont leave it that long again.